Labels: Babbles, Daily rant

There's always a point in my busy daily routine when I just wanna do something really stupid, something I'll laugh off later or something I will never ever do when I'm sober. It's just that humans tend to like to stay in their comfort zones, lazing around doing what they do best, refusing to step out of their said comfort zone. I think that I need excitement in my life since I'm like a socially awkward penguin although I improved much since last year. I need to meet more people, I need to do something that is totally adventurous, I need a life.

Firstly, I need to go on a trip all on my own. I really want to! But my mum won't even let me go to the movies myself. What the. I can see the 'No' look on her face already. My dad, worse. He will never ever approve. My life is sad like this. If I think this through, I will seriously opt to stay in front of the tv or computer, spazzing over Jay Chou and all my other KPop people. I will rather grab a nice novel and drink a cup of Starbucks on a rainy day and spend my whole day like that. I'm really more of a introvert. Even the sport I play is indoors: table tennis. Even though I know volleyball and tennis and whatever else outdoors, I still prefer ping pong. Sigh. It used to be my life. Not anymore.

Secondly, I need to try space-shot. Although I think I will die when the damn thing finally shoots me up into the sky. I really will die of heart attack if I ever get on the thing! I have serious acrophobic( the fear of heights ). I can actually go on normal roller-coasters and even the new superman thing(!!) but nope, not space-shot. One time, my friends forced me to go on the Flying Chairs even though I wasn't mentally ready to go on it, I cried. Yep, like a total loser. Okay. Let's all forget about that fact.

Then, I wanna work and buy myself something expensive that I will really treasure. This is because I haven't actually really worked. The experience of working in my dad's clinic doesn't count because umm, it's unofficial! I never worked for a boss that will scold his workers yet or the kind of bosses who are really nice. Sigh. My life lacks experience. Why am I so sad? Now I need to think what stupid expensive things I will buy. A white grand piano! Uhh okay maybe that's too expensive. A phone? Maybe?

I really wanna continue doing my diploma for piano. I have this urge only when I'm busiest. That's me. Always distracted. What the. My piano skills suck to the max. I cannot do perfect sight-reading to save my life. I need to relearn guitar as well. I don't even remember the chords except for C major and G major. Urgh. #fail

I shall do all these secretly next time.

Labels: Babbles, Random thoughts

It's like a routine to bitch about a certain lecturer in a new semester. Ok sry. I'm not gonna name her but you know I know enough. :D

She asked us to prepare for a presentation, it's only a practice for the real presentation later on. So today this bullshit presentation started. First up, the people from my current class. They presented okay so she got nothing to say except to be really unsatisfied that they took all their points from articles online. WHUT LIKE YOU EXPECT EVERYONE TO GO TO THE TINY SHIT LIBRARY TO SEARCH FOR ARTICLES FOR TOPICS LIKE THIS AND YOU OF EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW HOW USELESS OUR LIBRARY IS.

Actually before class, Vivian and I went downstairs to umm go to toilet (such lie HAHA). When we went back into the lecture room, I heard her scolding everyone else saying that they're very noisy and they're distracting her so if they don't wanna listen they can just leave and come back later. She also said, I need to focus (or something along these lines) because I'm going to give comments after the presentation. Note AFTER. LADY I KNOW WHAT'S DISTRACTING YOU: YOU EATING GUAVAS WHILE LISTENING TO STUDENTS' PRESENTATION. Talk about respect, you have none for those people who were presenting.

When they were presenting, she was like BLABLABLA TOO MANY WORDS I DONT WANT YOU TO READ FROM THE SLIDES WHO WROTE THIS ARTICLE WHERE DID YOU GET THIS ARTICLE DONT REPEAT THE SAME POINTS OK ENOUGH STOP WHAT IS THIS. Excuse me lady you wanna talk is it? Let you talk la. And, whole class understood that point they gave, only you didn't get it because you don't have basic in science! So, if you're not so smart, don't pretend! Because we know. We see through your layers of fats. And you said, Ok class next time try to use only about 5-10 minutes. WE COULD IF YOU STOP INTERRUPTING EVERY FREAKIN SECOND.

When it's our turn to present this Friday, Imma shut her up if she keeps interrupting. I'll be like, Excuse me miss, you said you will comment AFTER our presentation? This is a bit distracting for us. NOT TO MENTION SO ANNOYING I WANNA SLAP YOU. Ok I won't say that line. Lol.

I was so damned pissed at her! I don't like teachers like this. Don't feel so superior just because your English is good. So what? You're fat and ugly and bitchy. I don't think anybody likes you.

Thank god I saw Wooyoung and Wooyoung saw me. He just made me day thousand times better. :DDDD I shall not spazz here.

BECAUSE MY MUM READS MY BLOG. Lol.

Labels: Babbles, Daily rant, UTAR

Is it possible to feel so lonely even when you're standing with your friends, listening to all their jokes, watching them have fun and laughing along with them? 

Labels: Babbles, Rants

It's like rushing into a crowd of nobodies and finally finding someone familiar to you. The way a smile is carved onto your face right away and that sense of relief when you know everything is going to be okay. Nothing is going to make your day bad. And then right after, raindrops blurred your vision and when everyone around started running to get shelter, you lost the hand of the person you had with you. That moment of despair, that moment when you felt like a lost kid, without anyone at all. You didn't bother moving on, you squatted down in the middle of the messed-up horde of people and broke down. You cried like you have never cried, and you didn't even care what everyone else thought about you at that moment. You only knew, you lost the very last person who might ever care for you.

Labels: Babbles, Random thoughts

Two more days and a brand new semester is going to start. I've done so badly last semester I cannot believe it. I swear to work harder because I need to see some results. I probably thought that was my limit but it wasn't.

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When I chose this path, I swore to have a little faith.
Have a little faith in me.


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Check out my tumblr yo. Go create an account and follow me. :D

Labels: Babbles, Tumblr

I've been doing nothing lately, not literally though.

Working, attending IELTS class, watching tv, watching dramas, reading, going online and sleeping.

My life is awesome right now, I have nothing important to do, I can do anything I want. Im awesome. Tomorrow is Justin Bieber's concert. It sucks, he sucks, I hope he can leave M'sia soon.

Labels: Babbles, Daily life

刚看了个颁奖典礼（嘻嘻拍势忘了那名字）重点是有周杰伦！一开始有倪安东吴克群林俊杰王心凌蔡依林王力宏张杰韩庚SHESUJUM他们，俊杰有唱"她说＂，超爱这首歌！好听～压轴当然是大牌的咯：我老公！他之前有赢两个创作奖，最后赢最佳中文专辑。到最后＂杰出歌手＂当然也是名字里有杰字的赢啦，他真的赢完大牌的奖！他的得奖感言非常敷衍，我有感觉受骗的感觉，＜＜这么烂的华语也是他那边学来的，烂透，哈哈！我说他帅，我爸吓倒的样子看着我问，他帅？哈哈，当然咯，有眼识英雄！

我朋友在twitter说她等了一整晚结果他只唱了雨下一整晚，炸到～我老公真不失水准，一开始就忘词，还说"哎唷忘记了＂之后一直哎唷哎唷声，哈哈，还一直改歌词。爽到～♪( ´θ｀)ノ 中间还问"哎唷要用真音还是假音呢？＂这种事自己心里想就好嘛，还要讲出来的窝，哈哈，非常爱他啊我！ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ还讲很久没开演唱会了（;￣O￣）那我三月去的是舍？你说！

最后他叫我们大家忘了那一段演唱窝？死了都不可能！这么经典的搞笑哈哈哈哈哈(⌒▽⌒)要好好记得先。好想再去他演唱会！！1000块我愿意给！我老公怎样都不失舞台魅力，charismatic!懂得运用不同唱法，懂得吸引听众注意，懂得搞笑，懂得让我们记得当初为什么会爱他，懂得让我们知道他赢那杰出奖是名副其实的！（虽然他有点心虚啦(^з^)-☆）

周杰伦，哎唷，我爱你喔，不错喔～♪(´ε｀ )

不错喔，整个都用华语咧，还是iPad，累死了，不po照片啦，安～(⌒-⌒; )

Labels: Babbles, Celebration, Fangirl moment, Jay Chou

We stayed over at aunt's apartment again last night. We had breakfast and I loved my Yong Chow fried rice. I wanna taste Hangeng's Beijing fried rice one day. That was random. Let's pretend I didn't just typed that out. I seriously won. I played badminton with my brother and won. Jogged Walked on the treadmill while watching Witness At Prosecution or something similar to that. Drove my brother for his tennis training but the coach ended up ffk my brother and while waiting for that irresponsible coach, I played tennis with my brother and I can play, I believe. Later, we're going to pologround to umm, maybe jog a bit and badminton. FYI, my brother got Tan Boon Heong's badminton racquet, shirt and pants from TBH's dad so he's extremely excited, it's okay. I can exercise too! :D

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It's exceptionally easy for you to do according to whatever you want. You are selfish. You don't sit down and think what's best for other people, okay maybe you don't really have to sit down and all but why not pause for a second to think what's the impact of your irresponsible actions on others? Seriously, everyone else may not be thinking about others all the time but at least we are average in everything we do. We may hurt people but also, it's always unintentional. Unlike what you do. You can only think about you and yourself. I don't see the point in hurting someone who actually trusts you, unlike the rest of us. That someone is kind and ends up being used by you. I think I should stay away because I don't like you and everything about you.

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It was always easy for me to slack and do nothing because, I don't know, because things were always easier last time? Maybe. Now, it's getting harder and it's weighing on me I can hardly breathe. The tons and tons of everything, homework, exams, lectures, lies and sorrow. When am I going to be truly happy again? I found something that makes me happy and yet everyone and everyone else is trying to pull me away but I don't give up. I stay on and strong.

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You never knew why I left
I couldn't tell and let you wept
Your tears like the rain
All over but clear and sane.


Maybe, just maybe one day you would understand
All the things I did and never did
Forgive me and take me back
I never meant to hurt and never had.


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My favourite number is 4, just like you.

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I MISS XANGA. andpong. SM TOWN CONCERT IN LA JUST ENDED SIGHS.

Labels: Babbles, Heechul, Poem, Random thoughts, SS501

Emits sorrow
That mocks the crow
Always there
Like warmth in the clouds
Hairstyle fashion sense
We all allow
Because that's that and that we love
Haters are fakers that annoy us
We just wanna get rid of losers
If you dislike then off you go
Because no one bothers so shoo.


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Kyu ah Kyu please have Twitter
Because your Wookie is also here
I need you to update me on you
I need you to tell me you're okay.

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Okay tomorrow is my driving test. This is scary. I'm freaking out. I'm so sleepy. Maybe I should sleep now. After 6 hours of nap. Awesome. Shit. What if I fail? I have to retake the test. T.T NO NO NO. I'm freaking out somebody help me shit! Bugger. Whatever la. After tomorrow I need to watch movie and finish my holiday homework. Bugger bugger bugger. FML FML FML.

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GOOD NEWS IS WOOKIE HAS GOT TWITTER YAY HE GAVE IN! RYEOWOOK OPPA!
BAD NEWS IS HEE IS SAD. SIGH. SARANGHAEYOKIMHEECHUL.
AWESOME NEWS IS SS3 MIGHT BE HELD IN FEB 2011. NEXT YEAR! :DDDD
GOOD NEWS IS MINNIE IS SO CONCERNED AWW THE LOVE.


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:) Yes we love that big sexy smile. Shit. 
You do know that you'll always be the most handsome person to me right? 
당신을 사랑합니다
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
생일 축하해 - 현 정에
Oh and that solo dance? That's amazing.
:D

Labels: Babbles, Celebration, Hyun Joong, Poem, SS501, Super Junior

Sea of knowledge that I drowned in
Made of all the junk I hate
Facebook twitter saved my fate
Or else I'll be as dead as clay
Everyday Chem Bio and Physics
History Add Maths and all the shit
You'd think I will jump from KLIA to the street
But I can't because I need Beijing
I listened to radio and watched TV
Rubbed my eyes because I was always drowsy
I napped and rested all the time
I regretted when I was blank
No point telling tales of me
I'm sure I'm as boring as Key
It is holidays and I will flee
To Beijing as fast as I plea
I have a driving test coming up
But I think I will anger the cops
I don't think I'm as reckless as my mum
How would I know 50 is fast
I'm doing Chemistry now
Watching videos that makes me go wow
No one is on Facebook and twitter
How am I going to mutter
All my annoyance and anger
Gossip group is out of here
Therefore, I will disappear.

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May I ask why are they always sleeping
When King of Prank is out wandering
Looking for victims everywhere
He will prank regardless of their shouts of dismay
He makes fans go crazy
And give ideas and dishonesty
He's old so he is safe
Others get the seed of revenge
All because of his pranks
I shed sympathy
But I cannot deny that I love this King.

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Shit I am in the poetry mode
Get me out of here
I can write nice and bad things
But if you know me
I normally bitch
I know that's bad
But I always get annoyed
Should I slap or just write
Pick one and I'll do that
I am not inspired but whatever
I love to write about her
I used to write about another her
Because she was actually popular
But now she's just a dump
I can't be bothered to write anymore
Because she's such a bore
The one that really inspires me
No one but my enemy.

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She annoys me very much
From her gestures of a whole bunch
Her singing and her dancing
Her screaming and her hugging
Like fallen leaves from trees
That tickles my neck
Like the whirling snow
That makes one shiver
Sometimes when you need peace
You hear the laugh of a banshee's
You can't help yourself
But to want to dedicate a poem to her
She inspires me
Everyday all the time
You ask why don't we all like her
Because we're all such mean bitches.

Labels: Babbles, Poem

This week is a stupid week. I studied and studied and studied. When I finally take a break from my book, I'll be in my confused state and just stare at nothing in particular. Or else, I'll be writing nonsense in my infamous book. Sad. Then had rehearsal for Hari Anugerah Cemerlang which was none of my business really, but principal wanted all Form 5s to watch it to inspire us. Good for us. I was just interested in the performances. Drama and choral speaking. We were reciting lines from drama and choral speaking all day long. I loved the performances. On the day itself, bugger, too many parents came, so although initially we were sitting right in front, they shooed us behind and yes, you're right, we could hardly hear anything but it's okay, at least we got to watch the perfs during the rehearsal. And wtf? How can you scold those ex MGSians just like that when they are your best students? Siao.

I need to study Chemistry. Can I faint?


And oh my god the teaser for SuJu's 4jib is out. I cannot describe how excited I am now. I'll just tell you, I watched that teaser for over 20 times. Fullstop.

Cannot fullstop lah. I must continue babbling. Teuk showed his abs oh my bugger oh my flip! Teuk teuk teuk abs abs abs. Eunhyuk got one stupid helmet on. I don't like. And oh my god Wookie so freaking yeng lah omg how they transformed him oh god.

OMG AND SUNGMIN DESERVES A WHOLE PARAGRAPH. HIS SEXY GLARE. AHHH HIS MUSCLES. AHHH CAN I FAINT FAINT FAINT. SUNGMINNNNNNIE AND HIS STARE/GLARE WHATEVER OH GOD.

Breathe.

And what the crap. MBLAQ got new MV teaser out. Joon's acting is perfect oh my god. He cried and kissed the girl and fought. With Seungho I think. Oh god sexy shit sexy!

And SS501 got their concept pics out.

Why is everyone's comeback concept so freaking sexy? I wanna faint again. Omg. Aish they are trying to make all of us faint. Bugger.

And the few of them have been tweeting actively. Awesome. T.T because I still needa use google translator. Sad.

Been watching a lot of videos online. And a lot of dramas on tv. Cinderella's Stepsister. GOT TAEKYEON! The drama is damn nice. No Limit. Yunho. Stupid drama. Scandal in Seoul. Idk but I find the drama super useless. Lol.

Sigh. Ukiss Shinee. I need to see them. I need to. HOW? HOW?

Oh and driving tomorrow. Blah. Gonna be hot tiring stressful. I forgot how to drive already. FML.

We went out for dinner at Koh Samui. Aunt wanted to spend us but see see my dad's ex staff nurse go secretly paid already for us and my mum found out. Lol. F-My aunt's-L. Sad. So tomorrow going out for dinner at Bercham seafood restaurant. Lol. Seriously zha dou if got someone pay for us. Again. Haha.

Teuk Kyu and Shindong uploaded voice msgs. ♥

Okay I should stop babbling already bye. Oh and Happy Advanced Mummy's Day. :) Donghae bought carnation for his mummy. Aww. Okay seriously, bye.

Labels: Babbles, Celebration, Daily life, Fangirl moment, Pic Spam, Super Junior