I lost that touch
Thursday, September 29, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Is it possible to feel so lonely even when you're standing with your friends, listening to all their jokes, watching them have fun and laughing along with them?
Not even a single best friend. As in one that I can tell everything to. That defines my life. Should I even be upset by this? I thought I should have gotten used to it. But no, I can't.
At the end of it all, you're gonna be all alone, all by yourself. That's why.
Break the ice
Wednesday, September 28, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Sometimes you don't know whether it's sympathy or love. Both makes you irrational. Both makes you think you wanna be with a certain person forever. Both makes you make wrong decisions and only realise it when it's too late. However, for a relationship out of sympathy, you will feel guilt strangling you soon after, guilt tries its very best to make you stop breathing to payback for all the hurt you will cause the other person when you speak the truth. Whereas love will most probably leave you alone standing against the world, love will disappoint you in the end when you realise that all these while, you've been trying to stay strong, all by yourself, alone.
Heart and soul
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Things worth having are worth waiting for.
Labels: Random quotes
Tuesday, September 27, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Don't be offended by his videos. That is him. The real him. If you don't like his videos, just close this tab for god's sake. Don't bash.
Kyujong's new solo song! Not bad at all. :D
Heechul and Kim Jang Hoon's duet.
DBSK's old song. Very the nice still.
DBSK new songs. Get Out and In Heaven. Oh my god. So amazing ;~;
That's all. I'll blog when there is actually something to blog about. Lol.
How it feels
Sunday, September 25, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
It's like rushing into a crowd of nobodies and finally finding someone familiar to you. The way a smile is carved onto your face right away and that sense of relief when you know everything is going to be okay. Nothing is going to make your day bad. And then right after, raindrops blurred your vision and when everyone around started running to get shelter, you lost the hand of the person you had with you. That moment of despair, that moment when you felt like a lost kid, without anyone at all. You didn't bother moving on, you squatted down in the middle of the messed-up horde of people and broke down. You cried like you have never cried, and you didn't even care what everyone else thought about you at that moment. You only knew, you lost the very last person who might ever care for you.
Friday, September 16, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Two more days and a brand new semester is going to start. I've done so badly last semester I cannot believe it. I swear to work harder because I need to see some results. I probably thought that was my limit but it wasn't.
When I chose this path, I swore to have a little faith.
Have a little faith in me.
Check out my tumblr yo. Go create an account and follow me. :D
Tuesday, September 13, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Pics from sem 1
Sunday, September 11, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
Bye bye sem 1.
It was raining
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There will be no me without you.
Nah, I'm only like this with you.
You told me that someone once told you that bad things usually happen when it's raining. You said that this was the main reason why you started hating rain. I never knew why until I realized how bad it would hurt every time it rained. How bad my heart twisted and turned, how it wouldn't let go of the shadow of you, how it clinged onto memory of you turning your back against me. How odd. You once said, it's us against the world. Now, it's only me, alone.
When you looked at me, I felt special. Like, I was the only one you saw. Past tense. All these things, all these feelings you gave me, I never realized how could all these turn into nothingness in just a few seconds after you utter those words that returned 'us' to two complete strangers. Even strangers wouldn't feel distance this far in between. What happened? Why didn't you hold onto what made us 'us'? Why did you give up? Why did you give up on me?
I'd teach you love. I'd teach you how to love..me.
When I looked into your eyes, I didn't actually feel anything at all. Just a long and dark tunnel. So dark that I was almost scared. You had no idea how much courage I needed to make that one move. You had no idea. You knew but you just crushed me like that in the end, along with my heart, my soul and left me hollow.
You said you liked the sky. You liked how it seems so big and wide. All the possibilities. From then on, I knew that every time I looked at the sky, I would think of you. That expression when you looked up and smiled at the sky. I didn't think of one point, if you liked the sky so much, if you were always looking up at the sky, how could I make you see me, even when I was just next to you?
Everybody knows you tried, everybody knows it's alright.
Lack of confidence. It was the lack of confidence that killed me. However, it seemed like more than that that was keeping you away from me. You just merely didn't like the real me. You wanted somebody nice and sweet. And that couldn't be me. I knew, but I rather let you hurt me, I rather let you, not anybody else.
You said things that touched me sometimes but I always denied because it showed my weekness and I hated that.
Conclusion: I hate when some things are too good to be true. These things make me doubt whether I deserve them or not. I always think, I'm not worthy. Please don't love me back.
One week in Ipoh!
Friday, September 9, 2011 // 0 comment(s)
This is major. I'm back in Ipoh! For a whole week!
I know, you might say, I came back for a whole week last week too. But the difference is that last week, I had to study like mad. This week, HAH DREAM ON MAN NO TEXTBOOKS oh yeah~
Ok I'm gonna do a vlog later or tomorrow about more details about all the random sressful nonsense in my crappy life.
But for now, life's good. :)
And it's Chuseok today!!