It's all good, trust me.
Monday, August 30, 2010 // 0 comment(s)
Continue smiling. Don't stop.
You know you can face it all because you know you will always always have me ready to catch you when you fall. You will never walk alone, never.
Maybe it's me, but I feel that your heart's so fragile, you need me to hold it carefully when you're not looking.
You can trust me.
Sunday, August 29, 2010 // 0 comment(s)
It means school everyday plus piles of papers as homework to prepare us for damned SPM plus results for trials. Mofu! I feel like crying now. I need my bbs, eodiya? ;___;
I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TMRW.
Blah. Pic spam time! Gotta watch badminton now too. :D
Okay my mood is blahblahblah whenever I think of that imaginary instruments moment in ss3. Ohgash. Looking at our beautiful angel trying to hold back his tears, all I want to do is have him in my arms and tell him that everything will be okay, you have us, and our love. This is sad but at least you have us. SIGH.
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The sun's bright glare was right in my eyes. I held up one hand to shield myself from the sun's cruelty, in order to see what was he doing outside. Why did he run away when I called out to him?
I followed, making almost no sound at all. It looked as if he was in a hurry. I almost tripped when I stepped on a twig. Thank god he didnt notice. I hope he was just doing something beneficial. Like exercise. No no no, even I didn't believe myself. I hoped numbness would come over me. My heartbeat was impossible to count, it was going so fast, banging against my ribcage. The thumping was loud in my ears, the buzzing and all.
He was getting blurry. I thought it was sweat that betrayed my eyes but no. When I tried to wipe it away, nothing happened. The ground looked blurry and black. I think that was when I blacked out. My last thought was, Oh no. I'd lose him. What if something happens to him?
I woke up feeling very grouchy. Where am I? I jumped, startled by the blackness of his eyes. The tunnel to his soul. The shortest way to reach him. I'd never achieve that, would I? I never really did understad him. He didnt want me to. I felt my heart stopped. His eyes can really soothe me sometimes.
He saw that Im fine. Then he wore his coat and walked out of the door. He just left me. Again. With tears threatening to spill from my eyes, I grabbed a coat and chased him. I tripped so many times I don care anymore. I just want him to tell me he's gonna be fine. And that he wouldn't leave me for anything.
I thought it was all over. He didn't know. He shouldn't feel guilty. But he wouldn't listen to me.
He reached the end. The other side of the forest. He looked out, at the sun's beautiful ray which brightens everything. And he breathed in the smell of the ocean water. As if he was doing that for the last time. He looked back at me. He smiled. As though his problems were all gone. I hadn't saw a smile from him for days. And now. It was my last time. I was still running. I couldn't stop sobbing. I couldn't breathe. When I reached there, I saw, I saw him. Him, gone.
He jumped, I died.
Trial and error.
Thursday, August 26, 2010 // 0 comment(s)
TRIALS WAS MOFU STUPID! WHATEVER I'M DONE WITH IT WTF HAPPY NOW.
Things to do:
1. Dl songs and videos.
2. Read the pile of novels asap ohgod.
3. TF FROYO! the card is expiring omo.
4. Exercise, you fat ass.
5. Sleep my way through day and night I don't care anymore wtf.
That's about it. Lol. Kind of sad, no? Whatever. I don't give a damn so stfu I just wanna sleep!
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