Hang on because we're almost there.

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week 7: skipped

week 8:
- 10 kg barbell shoulder press, squats, row
- elliptical machine
- 1 min 30 seconds plank
- didn't do bench press because I was alone
- 20 kg squats
- 17.5 kg barbell row
- 15 kg shoulder press & bench press
- 35 kg pull down
- 10 mins air exercise
- 1 min 30 secs plank
- 53.4 kg
- 24.7 % body fat (but my friend said it's impossible to do more weights and lost actual weight and have increased body fat so yay the machine must be inaccurate lmfao)

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I'm one of those annoying people who keep complaining and complaining (to myself) about what others have and what I don't. I keep looking at other people and thinking they're living lives so much better than mine. Did I do something wrong somewhere? Have I not done something to deserve what I want?

But actually, I have no idea what I bloody want. I actually have everything I need. I have a beautiful family and some considerably amazing friends (only sometimes haha). I have enough money to spend, I have food any time I need it, I have a roof over my head. So sometimes, I really wonder why do I still look at other people and actually think that their lives are perfect because obviously everyone has their own problems and what I can see is superficial. They probably have this but don't have that and they probably are envious of me too? I think.

Although I do stop and think about everything I have and feel contented for like 2 seconds and go back to whining about how miserable my life is, when it's, in actual fact, not. I really should stop concentrating about how (I think) other people are happier than I am. I should not compare and it's unfair because my parents try so hard to give me everything they can.

Even if I feel like they don't give me enough, it's probably everything they have.

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Diet: Reduced carbohydrates. Otherwise, eating normally.
*Actually ate damn a lot yesterday (8/10/2013)

Gym: 
Routine: Squats, standing barbell shoulder press, barbell row, bench press, air exercise, pull-down, plank. 3 x 5

Week 1: - 10 kg weights
              - 40 secs planking
              - 52.7  kg
              - 24% body fat
              - 9 days to recover

Week 2 : skipped

Week 3: - 15 kg weights
              - 1 min planking
              - 53.2 kg
              - 23.2% body fat
              - 3 days to recover

*Changed to 3 x 10 with lesser weights
Week 4: - 7.5 kg weights
              - 1.15 min planking
              - 52.8 kg
              - 23.2 % body fat
              - 1 day to recover

*Added air exercise 
Week 5: - 7.5 kg weights
              - 54.7 kg
              - 22.7 % body fat

*Need to: - reduce coffee intake
                - increase milk intake

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There's this one person I know who doesn't give a shit about the truth, all he cares about is having something to say. All he needs to go on with life is to have something bad to say about other people, regardless of the truth of everything he says. He reaches the edge of passing gossips and is now about to throw himself off the cliff  by creating them.

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Diet: Reduced carbohydrates. Otherwise, eating normally.

Gym: 
Routine: Squats, standing barbell shoulder press, barbell row, bench press, pull-down, plank. 

Week 1: - 10 kg weights
              - 40 secs planking
              - 52.7  kg
              - 24% body fat
              - 9 days to recover

Week 2 : skipped

Week 3: - 15 kg weights
              - 1 min planking
              - 53.2 kg
              - 23.2% body fat

*Need to: - reduce coffee intake
                - increase milk intake

Labels: Fitness

I'm a bookworm.

It means I like to read. I like to read, a lot. I love watching movies too but always, always books over movies. I like to imagine how the characters look like through the moving, vivid descriptions by the authors. I like to imagine the scenery mentioned in the books. I like to pick up a book and literally be in the book for that few hours until I finish right up to the last sentence, until I shut the book, until I just sit there sighing and try to get out of the book.

I used to read a shitload of English and Malay books on detectives solving mysteries and cases (Siri Salma and Famous Five etc). Then I grew out of those and started reading proper fictions like Harry Potter, Sherlock Holmes and Pendragon. After that, I started reading romance novels as well (mostly English ones because I tried reading Malay romance but it's so draggyyyyyy). But then by the time I left high school, romance got boring (unless it's written by Nicholas Sparks). I mostly read Jodi Picoult's because she's so freakin' amazing. She does her research and she writes on issues so close to heart. I major love her books! Now I just randomly read non-fictions.

I'm a fast-reader. Until I enter university and need to literally memorize every single word in my lecture notes, I try to slow down my speed of reading, or else how am I going to even actually remember? I used to be able to finish a Harry-Potter-thick novels in under 2 hours. I would come back from the mall in the evening with a plastic bag full of books and then I would pick one and sit on my couch and start reading. I wouldn't realize how time had gone by if it wasn't for I couldn't see the words anymore because it was already dark outside.

I hate how once I entered pre-university and university afterwards, I just can't find time to be always reading anymore. Before this phase of life, I would always always be reading something. Once I finished a book, I would've gotten another book to read. And I always bring a novel to school just in case things get boring (which was almost always). I brought books when travelling. I actually brought 2 novels during our family trip to Hong Kong and I read when waiting for orders to arrive or before bed or when waiting for everyone else to get ready. I was always reading.

But now, if I start reading a novel, I will never be able to finish it in a day because something always pops up and I just suddenly have things to do. Except maybe during the holidays. For now, I probably only read about 5 novels per year, or less.

I have to study, I have to socialize, I have to sleep. They are probably just excuses.

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I know I probably insult a lot of people, jokingly of course. I mean, that's how I usually communicate with friends I consider close to. Obviously I don't just go around insulting people I'm not close to because they'll take my words seriously. Seriously though...

Anyway, I just wanna emphasize that I won't insult someone whose self-esteem is already low. If someone is already insecure of her looks, I will try to pay her more compliments so she'll feel better about herself. This is because I know how it feels to have a low self-esteem.

If people actually notice, I only insult (I want to emphasize again: jokingly) people who have a mountain high of self-esteem, like if they're always showing off their muscles or always saying how good looking they are. Because I know they won't be affected by whatever other people say, they still feel good about themselves.

However, for someone with low self-esteem like me, when people say that I'm fat or ugly, I take them seriously because to me, their words are actually believable. I mean I'm actually really fat. I currently weigh at over 50 kg. For someone my height, I'm fat.

Which guy doesn't prefer a thin girl, to be honest?

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1. People who like to force me into doing something I don't want to do. 

I know I know. You'd say if I don't want to do something, nobody can force me to. Damn right you are. It's just bloody annoying how people think they have this power over me and that they can just talk me into doing something I really don't want to do. They try to guilt-talk me but I actually just see that as peer freaking pressure. Doesn't mean you're doing something and that means I have to, too. I just don't get it. Sometimes even though I'm not really against a certain idea, I'd stand strong and hold my ground just so they won't have the satisfaction. Why must y'all judge just because I'm not who you want me to be?

2. People who drive fast.

Mum just told me about someone she knew who drove fast and got involved in a car accident. Now he's still unconscious. And another accident where this new driver drove fast and drove into a pole. The entire family in the car died. I don't know why people must drive so freaking fast? I mean there's a reason speed limit exists. I'm a rule-breaker but only rules that don't matter in high school like how we were not allowed to wear ankle socks. You can't drive too slow either because that'll cause accidents too. But if you drive fast just to show off or to appear cool, nope, you're not as cool as you think you are. It's also bloody annoying how so many drivers speed on small roads like hello, what's the freaking point? I can drive fast too, but I choose not to. I don't mind dying but there are actual people on the roads. If I cause an accident, I won't be the only one dying. I try to not be selfish. Speeding and then risking everybody's lives are selfish acts. If you wanna commit suicide, please go consume rat poison or just stab yourself in the heart, don't endanger everybody else. Especially if you have passengers. Usually if I'm driving anybody else, I'd try to drive steadily so they'll feel comfortable and to make sure they'll be safe. Those who can drive are adults, so please act like one.


I don't even know why I'm suddenly so annoyed dhjskdhjkasdak and ignore any mistakes because I'm too lazy to check for errors.

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