I sleep a lot, during the day. I'm nocturnal. I don't have a choice you see. Football is usually late at night and it's just so much more peaceful to be online, read or listen to music at night.

I get bored very fast. I can't focus when I'm studying. Like after 10 minutes of studying, I have the urge to do something else. I can't play a game for more than a few months too, I just lose interest quickly.

I like spicy food.

I used to have a very very bad temper. I still do actually but it's so much better now, even I noticed.

If you wanna ask me out, bribe me with movie and Japanese food. That'll do.

Favourite artiste ever: Jay Chou.

I have a soft spot for babies and puppies.

I'm way too honest and straightforward.

I can't act because acting means having to be fake and I can't be fake.

I can't sing.

My favourite colour changes every now and then. For now, it's red and mint green.

Favourite beverage: water.

I like to paint my nails a lot.

I will never understand why some girls like to spend all their money on useless branded things. When like all other cheap handbags, the expensive ones rot too.

I'm actually quite sensitive to a lot of things but I just won't show it because I hate having people to feel bad for me. So I always act nonchalant.

I personally think I'm quite observant. I notice a lot of things because I like to watch people quietly, not in the creepy way though.

I like to look at the sky.

I've seen a meteor once.

I like guys with broad shoulders.

The first thing I look in people is their eyes. Or hair. Depends.

Batman > Spiderman.

Favourite cartoons are Tom & Jerry, Popeye the Sailorman, Scooby Doo and Spongebob Squarepants.

I don't eat tofu and mushrooms.

I love rain.

I don't know how to put on make up.

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Don't be offended by his videos. That is him. The real him. If you don't like his videos, just close this tab for god's sake. Don't bash.





Kyujong's new solo song! Not bad at all. :D



Heechul and Kim Jang Hoon's duet.



DBSK's old song. Very the nice still.



DBSK new songs. Get Out and In Heaven. Oh my god. So amazing ;~;





That's all. I'll blog when there is actually something to blog about. Lol.

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1. Five ways to win your heart -Smile. I've grown to like people who smile at me, whether it's a polite or whether it means anything else.
-Nag me. Suitably.
-Remember little things I say that even I don't remember them.
-Don't lie. Be honest.
-Make sure I know that you will always be there for me.

2. Something you feel strongly about 
How people treat each other. After 18 years, I've come to realise that the world will turn out to be a much better place if people are nice. It's just that simple. With a simple smile, you get a smile in return. And I don't know why this just brightens my whole day. It's nice to know that sometimes a smile means nothing, no exploiting, no lies, no hidden meanings.

3. A book you love 
Wuthering Heights. I cannot describe the feeling I had when I first finished this book.

4. Bullet your whole day
-Slept at 3.30am this morning.
-Mum woke me up at 8am.
-Went to work and got RM50 for just 2 hours.
-Came home and then went out to Richi for indian food.
-Watched the ending of Secret Garden.
-Nap.
-Woke up and went to Daorae for dinner.
-Bought a snack from Kim's Mart.
-Watched Criminal Minds.
-Came online.

5. Things you want to say to an ex 
I have nothing to say.


6. Your views on mainstream music 
Overplayed. Over-rated. Mostly nonsense rapping, shouting and banging. Seldom I hear songs that inspire me what more songs that make any sense.

7. Five pet peeves 
- I hate it when people spit in public places. Seriously, I cannot stand it.
-When people look through my phone.
-People interrupting when someone else is talking. Be a listener.
-People doing that tongue-clicking thing to get someone else's attention.
-Not listen when I say things for the first time and then need me to repeat for several more times.

8. What you ate today 
-Blueberry bread
-Indian food
-Korean food

9. How important you think education is 
Very. First of all, the lack of knowledge and the ability to think rationally will definitely get in the way in your life later on. Second of all, people with absolutely no education is far off worse than those who at least studied for some skills to get going with life.

10. Put your music on shuffle and list the first ten songs 
-Maybe-Enrique Inglesias
-Like Only A Woman Can-Brian Mcfadden
-That Man-Hyun Bin
-Wasteland-SS501
-Tonight-Big Bang
-Little Turtle-Nicholas Teo
-All The Way North-Jay Chou
-Hurt-Christina Aguilera
-Grandmother-Jay Chou
-John-Lara

11. Your family 
Many people admire the bonds that exist between our family members. Yes, my dad can be annoying in a funny way sometimes but isn't that what brings us together? He makes prime decisions and makes money. He often says and does funny things and he gets annoyed when we are forever laughing at him. Mummy is blur most of the time. Yet she's the one keeping our finance in check. One thing we always laugh about is what she said. Bro: /talking to mum/.. Mum: Don't talk when I'm thinking! That is one example. People always say that my relationship with my mum is more like a relationship between sisters. We joke around and talk nonsense. However, I think I'm the closest with my sister because we're only a year apart and I don't know but we stick to each other all the time. I know this is weird not because I feel so, it's when people start saying things like 'why are you so excited to see your sister?' 'why do you prefer being with your sister than your friends?'. With my brother, I thin k he exists just to annoy the hell of us. He has phases. Now, he is into making amazing paper planes and spinning pens. Yes, I know. Odd. However, he is the most caring brother, the best son and an awesome friend.

12. Five guys whom you find attractive 
-Generally guys who do music. JAY CHOU.
-Guys who are handsome in a unique way. HIM. I'm kinda bored with typically handsome guys.
-Guys who smile, occasionally. HIM. I don't really like it when guys flash smiles like a commodity.
-Guys who have nice eyes. I'm an eye kind of girl.
-Guys who ain't lala.

13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it 
I am fat. Period.

14. What you wore today 
T-shirt and shorts.

15. Your zodiac and if you think it suits your personality 
Aries. Apparently Aries girls are..brave. In a way, I am. No, I'm not talking about heights and crowd. I think I am brave in the sense that I don't mind new environment, I adapt quick. I am brave in some ways some people would never witness.

16. Something you always think "what if..." about '
'What if I'm born a korean' If I'm a korean, I'll only know how to speak practically one language only. If I'm a korean, I have to constantly fear the possibility of having wars. If I'm a korean, I can always see korean celebrities around. If I'm a korean, I probably will not know about Malaysia either. 

17. Something that you're proud of
I've gone to NS and returned alive. Also the fact that I managed to get out of NS for 2 days for Jay Chou's concert.

18. A problem that you have had 
I am too honest, sometimes. I hurt people's feelings on purpose because some of them deserve it and I don't feel guilty about it because others who dislike those people I hurt applaud me for standing up for them. Another problem is I am too secretive when it comes to how I feel. I hide. I don't like rejection.

19. Five items you lust after 
-Hyunjoong
-The Guess bag.
-Jodi Picoult's Sing Me Home
-Roses
-you ;)
20. Your fears 
Of heights and crowds. Rejection and suspicion. I fear to be happy because I don't want to wake up and find that it is only a dream.

21. How you hope your future will be 
I want to be studying something I want. I want to be working and doing something I like. I want to be just average, financially. I want to have an Asian husband. I love kids but I don't think I'll ever deliver any so I might just adopt or whatever.

22. Your academics 
I am happy with my academics but my family aren't. I'm never a person to work extremely hard because I'm just not born to be this way. I like to be average.

23. Something that you miss 
I miss my young self, who is so much slimmer. I miss NS. I miss Timmy(my missing Golden Retriever). I miss my maternal grandmother. 

24. Five words/phrases that make you laugh(for today)
-你ge今朝係我ge零晨四點lor傻婆~~ call me - Xander
-Wait.. How do I upload pictures using the computer? -Kevin
-I have patients -Dad
-Changmin looks like Ah Xian. -Brother
-Right now my mum is getting me a pail. -PeiQi

25. Something you're currently worrying about
My future.

26. Things you like and dislike about yourself 
I like that I can remain calm in oddly exciting or devastatingly sad situations. I like that I receive occasional compliments that I know are true. I like that I'm not perfect so I will know who will and will not accept my flawed self. I like that I've been to NS. I dislike that I'm not honest enough to myself. I dislike that I often get disappointed by how some of my friends act. I dislike that I am not good enough for my parents.

27. A quote you try to live by 
The higher the expectation, the harder you fall.

28. Somewhere you'd like to move or visit 
I want to move to South Korea. I want to visit Italy and Japan.

29. Five weird things that you like 
- The smell of petrol.
- Life at NS.
- Jay Chou, as a man himself. Not just his songs.
- Expensive things so I can just go all gaga over it and during that period of time, I'd spend less money because I'll just go shopping less because I'm obsessed over that those expensive things.
-The smell of books.
30. One thing you're excited for 
F6 and probably UTAR.

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HAHAHAHA sorry I can't translate my whole mandarin babble bout Jay Chou in English but at least I can't dedicate one whole post to you. This is a lot okay considering I'm so damned sleepy right now. Hahaha~(^_−)−☆

晚安(⌒▽⌒)

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Determination burned in her eyes. I couldn't do that to her.


Strong willpower makes anyone desperate.


It had been months. I stopped her from following me to my practices, concerts and interviews. I stopped her from giving me her love, her gentle touches and caring speeches. I completely blocked her out of my life and me. I hated myself for a very long time, it never did fade, I thought it would never ever fade off. Not like the coffee stain on my shirt, not the stain of tears on my cheeks nor the hatred in her eyes. How could I ever ask her to forgive me?


Maknae of a group had to have the cleanest image of all. I had to keep myself away from scandals and rumours. The truth was, I didn't care about my image. I cared about her, her image and her heart. I knew she would be heartbroken when the papparazzi spread all those hurtful rumours. I was trying to protect her. In my own very way. I had to do that. But she would never forgive me. I was her first love.


I rubbed my eyes and stared at the ceiling.


Forgive and forget?


I saw her out on the street a few week ago. It was winter. It was such a beautiful sight I wanted to capture it down by all means. I took a picture of her. Looking up at the sky. Wanting to catch the snow and put it in her mouth. Her arms raised and lips carved upwards. I stared at this picture for so many times I could even sketch it out. She wore the red scarf I gave her, it was carefully hidden beneath her beige coat. It was her favourite coat. I smiled when I saw her doing this. We used to always do that when the first snow fell. This time, she was with no one. She was alone. But she still smiled. She still managed to smile. But me?


Someone stained the snow black.


I did all the things I needed to hurt her. She didn't want to leave. I guess she was bleeding so much she left me. She was my inspiration since then. I never ever forgot bout her. Never.


I didn't need her to forgive me. I just needed her to know I love her.


You know you are forgiven when the birds soar by.

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