Swirls of thoughts
Wednesday, August 15, 2012 // 0 comment(s)

Ochlophobia ("Fear of Unruly Mobs") and demophobia ("Fear of Crowds") are terms for types of social phobia or social anxiety disorder whose sufferers have a fear of crowds.
Ironically, it's inhumanity that makes all of us humans. It's a question I ponder upon everyday, why do humans need each other? Why do we cling on each other as if our lives depended on these friendships? Even the apparent bad people? How do we judge who is bad and who is good? Who set all these rules? Maybe we're just manipulated into doing things we do, maybe we're just puzzle pieces, chess pieces, broken pieces of each other.

A lot of statements are meant for people to merely believe in, nothing is proven. Just a comfort to many lost souls. We believe in what we think is the easiest, sometimes, we just accidentally on purpose forget to be curious, forget to ask, forget to find out about a lot of things that we don't have control in. Because it's easier that way. It's easier to follow what others believe in, it's just easier to stop questioning at some point.

Agoraphobia- abnormal fear of being helpless in a situation from which escape may be difficult or embarrassing that is characterized initially often by panic or anticipatory anxiety and finally by avoidance of open or public places.

Spaces scare me a lot. In a way. Spaces make you feel so bare and naked. As if when you're surrounded by endless of space, you're just standing there, waiting for someone in hiding to do something. Anything aimed for the exposed you. Will anyone save me? Am I on my own? Facing this infinite possibilities and chances I make for myself. Is this considered as paranoia? Probably it's all the unnecessary overthinking.

If I can't do crowds and open spaces, where do I go? 


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